Decisions

July 2025 - Don’t really know who Crow-Armstrong is but I heard he is decent.

Howdy y’all. Hisashiburi dana (apologies).

I'm currently writing this at 2am, and I have no idea when my last post was so I’ll figure that out in the morning. I just know it’s been a long time, and a lot has changed. (This part was written after checking - damn it's been more than a year?? My bad. It’s actually funny because in the last post I wrote about randomly running into a friend from Chicago and now I’m here again. Full circle moment.)

It’s always difficult leaving home - whilst it may only be temporary it’s still tough. When I moved before I was a student and I didn’t have the level of responsibility I have now so it was pretty easy.  This time I have a lot more to take care of and manage. It’s been a crazy couple of months but I’m glad I can say that it does feel somewhat like home now. There are moments when I have FOMO, but that comes with the territory and was to be expected. I do question if I made the right decision, but perhaps that’s something I’ll get an answer to later down the line. For the most part I’ve been doing great, minus the brief moments of uncertainty. Either way I know it’ll be a great experience - you really do grow and learn a lot when you’re living in a new place. Although in my situation it’s not entirely a new place, nor am I alone this time. 

The feeling of nostalgia has been immense lately. I have slowly been going through my various WhatsApp chats and saving photos/videos to back them up to my cloud storage and deleting them off the phone. So many memories, man - some made me way more emotional than I would care to admit. Reminds me of a quote from the office. “I wish there was a way you could know you’re in the good old days, before you’ve actually left them.” This must make me sound old af huh?

Side note - I have missed writing tbh. I had a good routine before - I was also going through it back then so maybe that’s why I wrote so much? Idk. I haven't really been in the mood to write anything lately but I had the sudden urge today. I’m not even sure who reads these anymore but to you. Yeah you reading this right now. I hope you’re happy and in good health. And I hope you’re doing well wherever you are :).

I think that’s enough rambling for today. I’ll be back, I guess?