Zoned Out

April 2019 - Be free.

Yo - what's good? I would say it’s been a while but considering my recent track record this isn’t too bad. An improvement if anything. Ima be honest I don’t really have anything in particular in my mind today. Normally, I start writing these with something I’ve been thinking about for a few days, or just whatever hits me in the spur of the moment. But I have nothing - which I guess is the reason for the title of this post. 

I’ve written about this once before - feeling detached from reality. Back then, we were in the midst of a lockdown due to COVID (which was a strange time in and of itself). I guess it made more sense to feel this way then, but I’m not sure why I feel like this now. I’m fortunate enough to be keeping busy these days with work and socially, too. Yet I don’t feel present, if that makes sense. Even my last couple gym sessions have been ajeeb - I’ve completed the sets I’m supposed to, but I haven’t really been able to focus during them. And for those of you who know me you’ll know that going to the gym is a big part of my life, so if I feel off there, then you know something is off.

I need to get back on my prayers tbh. Perhaps that will help bring me back to reality and put things back into perspective. I do also want to clarify that by no means am I in some dark place. I am grateful for everything that I have and where I am in life. It’s just one of those moments where I feel a bit lost. Idk if it's because I am uncertain about where I’ll end up in a few years. Normally I have some notion or inkling of what the overall plan is, but things feel uncertain atm. Should probably stop looking so far ahead and just roll with the punches. 

Who knows what opportunities await? 

Okay bye.